11/10/2010

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today is one of those days where i just want to kick, scream, cry and be mad at life... after a good cry I have calmed myself down enough to feel the spirit and know that there is a plan in all of this... whatever it may be, i know i am not alone and that heavenly father loves me.

i got a call from the doctor and he let me know that i have a uterus that is shaped in a way that will not carry a baby successfully. there are some surgeries that could correct this but honestly, they are so expensive that i do not know if we can even afford to do them at this point in time.

all i do know is that i am thankful for my savior. i know he knows exactly how i feel and that because of that, i can lean on him through these incredibly draining and devastating moments.

tomorrow will be a better day.

10 comments:

Tiffany said...

So sorry hear of your difficult news!!!! I can't imagine how devastated you must feel! Praying for you!

Sarah said...

oh cami... i'm so sorry. mine is shaped wrong too (we should talk). my husband always has to remind me that Heavenly Father made me the way He did for a reason and that i'm not a mistake. so i will say the same to you: Heavenly Father made you the way He did for a reason and you are not a mistake. hang in there cous. it sucks an it hurts, but keep holding on to your faith. love you.

Angela S said...

Is it a heart shaped uterus or something else? I have a friend who's was severely heart shaped and though she had a few miscarriages was able to deliver 4 babies. They were all premies and she eventually had the surgery. Not to give false hope etc.

I'm glad you're turning to the Lord at this time. There are so many options out there for you guys I know you'll find a way to have a family!

Rach said...

ugh...I am so sorry, Cami. Thinking about you. Hold onto that Faith. It will bring you peace. It has for me. We will be blessed with children one day, some way, some how and it will be beautiful.

Jessica Madsen said...

Oh Cami, I am sorry. My heart hurts to know you are suffering. We will keep you in our prayers. I know there are answers for your family. Thank you for sharing your story and feelings. You are a tremendously strong woman of great faith!

Hillary said...

We love your guts and will keep praying for you guys!!

mema said...

I really love you Cami. You have always been a great example and friend to my daughters and I thank you for that. You have the most amazing faith of anyone I know. May the Lord pour out his blessings upon you.
Love, Karen

Cassie said...

I'm so sorry Cami. I'll keep praying and hoping.

Keith and Beth Brown said...

Oh Cami, it seems like it never ends. Keep your hopes high. The Lord knows what you need and knows your struggles. My sister had a few problems and a miscarriage before they checked and realized her uterus was shaped like a whale and that she would never be able to carry a baby. however they failed to keep the Lords plan in all her bad news and now is expecting a baby "little Jonah" (due to the whale tale). Its never over till they remove the parts that make it all work.
We will pray for you and hope that you keep a positive outlook on things. Give this trial back to the Lord and have Him carry you for a while.
Love you guys!

Lindsay said...

I love you. I'm sorry to hear that there is more difficulty ahead. I'll keep you in our prayers. Just remember: You are A-MAZING!!!